Hosea 14:4

I will heal their backsliding

I am called of God to preach His Word. I loved the Lord with all my heart, but had taken my eyes off of the high calling of God. I found myself living in the most destitute state of open sin. But thank God, the word teaches whom God loves he chastises. Truly, like a lost sheep, I kept wandering farther and farther from the fold of the pasture. But, like the loving shepherd, my Lord pursued me. I kept running. But by providential circumstances, He brought a crisis that halted me and cause me to see my sinful state. Not that he had not done that before, but I was so intent on following the idols of my heart that I could not see what I had become, a backslider.

Praise God today, I have repented from my sin. I have asked God to break the ungodly soul-ties and to breakup the templates of my mind that held the patterns for the memories of my sins. God was merciful.

The reconciliation back to God was beautiful! But, I noticed that a part of me still had longings and I had the tendency to ‘validate’ those longings. Then, I heard a song and I realized that though I had repented, though God had forgiven me, I still had idols in my heart. I had to ask God to remove the idols from my heart. I give my idols to God.

Of course, to me, the spiritual restoration appears to be the easy part, when it is compared to having to live, work, and exist in a community in which you openly sinned. The good news is that somehow the condemnation that I thought I might feel, is not there, just a quiet patience to wait on the Lord.

I started this blog so that if there are believers, who for any reason, have walked away from their faith and the communion with God, that I might share my life, testimony, and journey back to God, to help to encourage them in their quest to be reconciled to the Kingdom of God.

I am confident that God truly loves you and that He is married to the Backslider, and that He himself will heal your backsliding.